Death and Strawberry

Another Lonely Memory (leo lonesome)
15:13 02/09/2005

I’m living in these dreams, which shows how sad it is in reality. I gave up all my hopes, cos there’s nothing to give-in from the start. This silent words will whisper how you never value these feelings. So when you call, i don’t think i could answer you.

So when you send me a letter i won’t be willing to write back. I have to stay away or the hurting will be never ending. I don’t  have to say a word or these lies will be never ending. Hearing your voice hurts me. A glance at your face makes my tears fall
what am i here from the start? when you’ll never be here in the end.

With these thoughts in my mind. I’m not the only one who’s left out but i know, that i’m on my own now. For now, this is goodbye. Another lonely memory is passing me by..

P.S.
i am waiting for you, please save me from loneliness..please take me away from here.

Philophobic (leo lonesome/ja latuja)
08:37pm 07/13/05

the scent of this air reminds me
of everything that happened between us
and how you said you feel nothing
about what’s recently happening

when i get a glimpse of you
its so hard for me to hide the truth
within my heart that moves me
its always you my euphoria

can we get all along
ive been dying to be near you
(prove to me you love me, show me that you care)
should i give it all
or leave a piece for me to
(im running out of hope and i feel so empty)
save my pride and all
the possibility
(prove to me you love me, show me that you care)
i had enough of this
(i had enough of this)

so please stop telling me that line of yours
it never really happened
it wasnt what you really feel
so please stop telling me those line of yours
it never really happened
it only makes you a liar

when i get a glimpse of you
its so hard for me to hide the truth
within my heart that moves me
its always you my euphoria

can we get all along
ive been dying to be near you
(prove to me you love me, show me that you care)
should i give it all
or leave a piece for me to
(im running out of hope and i feel so empty)
save my pride and all
the possibility
(prove to me you love me, show me that you care)
i had enough of this
(i had enough of this)

ive tried so hard to make you mine
but your hearts always missing
the fire i need or even just a flame
no i cant stay in my dismay
and pain of torturing myself
(and i must never love you again)
i stay away to break my fall
still you dont seem to care at all
(and i wont care for you at all)

Shakehands with Grenade (leo lonesome)
09:35pm 07/27/05

Countless nights crying myself to sleep. I’m thinking of every words that you said. Recalling things to my head, I’m too late to realize that all that I’m holding to was you. I reached for your hand but you never reached me back. I’m erasing all the memories that we had, forcing myself to forget everything. Those promises and words you’ve made, now they are all beginning to fade.

P.S.
Don’t ask for me to stay with you when all you ever do is go,
and take me for granted.

Seven and Thirteen (Gem Okay)

    
I’m floating up again, like a star in heaven watching over you. A
glance at your hands, like a fire that melts my innermost self through.
If I fall would you fly and catch me? If I fall would you fly and
spread those wings of yours? I have seen a greater passion deep within
this world goes upside down - turns around. spins around. catch me.
Hold on tight my dear. Let us soar on clouds and ask them where they
go. A warm touch of those hands, like a fire that melts my innermost
self through.

"Every corner of that face reflects a greater side
of such a beautiful creation heaven had let me owned and seen.
Wonderful things are meant for those who deserve it. But I’m too lucky
to have you even if I’m not one of them. please be there when I’m
surrounded by mistakes brought by ignorance. Please grab me as I fall
down on your feet. Please be there always. Please be there and don’t
let… go." -Gem Okay ‘05-’06

catch me..

hold me..

grab me..

if i fall again.